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on May 13 2007

Two Blue Lines

Hi all,

After many years of living more than I've been writing, I've decided to just dip my toes back into the world of written form a bit more. Would love some gentle guidance on strenthening this piece.

Thanks!

 

With resolve,
I unwrap this plastic prophet
And hold it unceremoniously between my thighs.
Just me, this stick,
And a very big question.
If I listened more carefully
To the whispers around the ethers of my being
And the subtle nuances in the tides of my body
I would be sure.
But right now, I’ve asked for a seer,
And I wait for it’s chemical wisdom
Which manifests as two blue lines
Emerging on a field of white light.
Ahh! Just sweet . . . this very moment
Which manifests countless new moments and possibilities
I dare to begin to imagine them all . . .
Just me, this stick,
And now, my dear, you.


on June 15 2007

Which is worse?

Ramone singing children jumping naked on the sofa screeching "twenty, twenty, twenty-four hours to go . . .  I wanna be sedated. . . "

Or the mother watching them and wishing somewhat that they were?

 

 

on June 11 2007

A Jersey Girl in Texas

(or squatting to pee in the plane's rear toilet during turbulence while wearing heels is an excellent extreme sport combining endurance, balance, excitement, and pain . . . and other things I learned).
 
The first thing I did after breakfast on Saturday was walk into a store I never heard of (Bass Pro), turn left, and shock to see a whole rack of rifles on the wall. I said to myself, “Girl, we’re not in Kansas anymore.” But that wasn’t as much of a surprise as the “Please take a ticket” machine on the counter . . . as if buying a rifle is as popular and usual as buying sliced ham and provolone at a deli on Saturday.
 
But I’m tough. I like a good cultural adventure. Like the tribulations of figuring out how to pump my own dang gas (yes, it’s true . . . Jersey girls don’t pump). Or being called Ma’am (good God, really?), or the confusion of being regularly interrupted from my thoughts and about three steps ahead before I realize some friendly someone is trying to chat with me for no apparent reason except that that’s what they seem to do down south. 
 
But Texas it was for our girl’s weekend away. Which was fabulous. We did all the things married girls with kids do when they get away on their own . . . eat too much, drink too much (in my case, coffee), and chat, talk, laugh, psychoanalyze, philosophize, theologize, and wax lewd about latex and leather until much too late into the night.
 
As much fun as that was, the real boon to the weekend was the time to myself in transit, and my first night at the hotel. I brought my notebook with me and just wrote and wrote. I so covet uninterrupted, quiet time, and I found it in spades. I managed to write a few poems and little half poems, and had time to read, too!
 
Of course, such a great weekend comes at a price. And probably, most of the mommas reading this know exactly what comes next. I come home, still floating high, am greeted by lots of wonderful little hugs and kisses, and a smiling husband . . . then open the door to the house . . . and OH MY GOD WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED IN HERE?!?!?!? Guess what I’ll be doing today? 

on May 29 2007

Time to Pump Iron

 

I am a ghost; transparent, fading in and out, unattached... 

Anemia. I don’t recommend it!

But I thought I’d try to look at the bright side. Leanne recommends Vodka for writer’s inspiration. I wondered if the haze induced by thin blood might be my own little pregnant woman’s happy hour. Sadly, the effect is more like poetry under the influence of Alzheimer’s.  

So, it’s a little hard to stay motivated this week- since it’s hard to stay awake. And dishes need to be washed. Little children need to be cared for (or occasionally let loose from the tv for a little air, and exercise). Oh, and I’m supposed to feed them, too. 

And then there’s the rest of the family. My aunt in law suggested that perhaps it’s time to hire a cleaner. And my mother, upon seeing me for the first time since Christmas, pronounced, “Hello dear. You HAVE gained weight, but you don’t look pregnant yet”. Maybe the anemia induced naps are an avoidance coping mechanism. 

But on the brighter side, I did send in the renewal for my nursing license. And I had a fabulous weekend at the in-law’s river house where children ran barefoot in the sand, searching for blue crabs, digging for shells, and thrilling at the boat rides and eagles. And I found the best coffee shop on the east coast – addictive brew, local bands. Good thing it’s hours away or I’d have to lease one of their love seats.

So, anybody know how to cook a good steak?

on May 20 2007

Why I am here

Have I mentioned yet, that this is an intimidating place to be? In fact, I’m not even quite sure I should even be here, except that I’d rather be the dim star in a bright constellation, than to hardly shine at all.
 
My nursing license renewal sits ignored next to my computer. I haven’t worked in years, but I keep the license. It’s getting dangerously close to being too late to renew, but I just can’t seem to manage to log on to do it.
 
Instead, I’m growing increasingly aware of my growing belly and the very first flutters of the tiny person within. This child will join a brother and a sister in November. I love them all, of course, and my sweet husband. But being a stay-at-home mother is an all-encompassing experience. I don’t wish it over, and I don’t wish to run away. But yes, absolutely, I do wish to fill my soul and nurture my intellect and do something completely unrelated to home for a few hours a week.
 
I thought, perhaps that something might be to write. After all, being some sort of English major was what I was unofficially tracked for in high school. Fortunately, I intuitively knew I needed to know real life instead of living vicariously through books . . . so I got that nursing liscense, moved to a foreign country, and had a bunch of fabulous adventures and life-altering experiences.
 
Now I have something to write about. I just forget how.   Or maybe I never really knew at all. Can I break through my own inertia; keep up the momentum? Oh to be at the very beginning of a journey where I'm not even sure where I'm going . . . but it is nice to look up into the sky and see that bright constellation shining above as though, just maybe, the stars might be rooting for me.  
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