Sweet Sadness

What is this that burns my mind
Salty, painful, acrid?
Is this sadness
Or simply my madness

No tears when father died
No tears shed for me
Today I sit
Alone
Cry
Oh the pleasure
A forgotten pain
Tears a plenty
But to truly cry
Such a long time
Scattered thoughts
All sad
Oh my god
This hurts so bad
You..yes you
You read this and wonder
Where is this talent?
Nowhere
This is I
Raw
Naked
Vulnerable
Bawling my fucking eyes out
Alone in my house
Almost alone in my mind
SCREAMING
Seeking mercy
From a soul I left behind
Wanting to hide
Wanting to drown my self
In these salty tears
Which I never knew I had
She Knows
She Knows too much
Caresses my mind
With a razors touch
Cuts the shackles
Imposed by my chill
The cold within
The Punisher
He of bloody revenge
And so....
I sit
Venting
Crying
Dying
Clinging to my life
Not for She Knows
Not for God
Not for sister
Not for me
I cling
For the sad soul
Sad, childlike soul
That sheds these tears
Blooded
Now shared

© 2005, Mosquitobyte