imagining the truth before it hits

never before have i felt such a rumble
was it a panic attack or was it
my heart as it was snapping in half?
no blues tune could ever stab
me harder than your cold truth
it hit me like gospel
got me speaking in tongues
when i had to ask you if
i was the only one

never before have i felt such a rumble
was it a panic attack or was it
the earth exploding behind my eyes?
you lost me at "i lost myself"
and then you even forgot to cry
your love is like a desert
your heart is a spy
and i hope it will bring
back my baby alive

you finally broke down
the wall you built to keep me happy
you told me to move on and
i shouldn't even try
the pain that caused my body
was all the pain i ever need
before i die

yeah i was always afraid to die
but i don't think anything
could feel more alright
your hug felt as empty as
a lung's last breath
pulled the plug somatic death