I Ask

You question your honesty. Why? Has she not chased as hard? Has she not let herself be the hunted, turned her talons against your flesh, feasted on your mind. Of course you are honest, you want her. You have not tracked her for ten years to surrender now. Do you not remember the trembling fear you had at Bathurst, the kiss of such.....want, that your heart was in your mouth all the next day. Have you forgotten how drunk you had to be simply to talk and that even then you couldn't. Fear held you back. And then. You finally  reach out, in a moment of weakness. It matters not how you felt then, what matters is that it was she to whom you reached. Two months now you have shared with this beautiful woman, shared more with than any other in your past. You have bared your soul, given her your words and let her into your mind. Does this not tell you something? Does this not fill you with wonder. Why all this doubt? Believe! Accept what you have to give and give it, lest it wither and fade, a forgotten emotion, atrophied and reticent. Give, freely and without expecting, give because you can, not because you should. Give because to hold back in fear is what harms you the most. You may get hurt, aaaah, but until that "may" happens, give, for you will hurt more without t love.

© 2005, Mosquitobyte