Myself?

I'm a man who broke his soul
Honey
I lost it while I hid from it
In this town full of sleaze
You see I didn't wanna be that person I know
But god knows I never meant to be alone

So I shut me out, locked in my little room
Jumped into laughter as protection from my hostility
Well it ain't easy to recall, makes me uneasy
But while my barriers were strong
I was weak willed
Now I'm embraced by the cure for my ills

I can't tell you what my name is
I want my body but not my mind
I need a feeling, worth dying for
Before I leave my life
But as I was talking
And I hid behind these eyes
I kept wondering how this woman
Saw through my disguise

Well my memories are curdling in me
As she leads me by the hand
Through the songs of my fear
And the distant noise of my creaking heart
Through the stench of foetid echoes
That infest my head
Through the darkness of a corridor
Into my sisters bed

Well I didn't wanna hurt her feelings honey
But I couldn't suppress my own
Had to pull myself off the edge
By raging violently for my self

She was lying on your back
When her scream started
I snapped her like a dry twig
I was going through the motions
Violence in emotions
Giving back that senseless sin

I tried so hard to free myself
I had to hurt someone else
Trying hard not to please myself
I turned into someone else
Now I try so hard to be myself
Am I turning into somebody else?

Hold me love
My souls on fire
I hear your voice
You lift me higher

© 2005, Mosquitobyte