Revealed

Revealed
unexpected it was
never saw it coming
now another knows
nay, even understands
kindred in more ways than one
covering our pain
behind cracked façades
promiscuity & flirting
insecurity & the hurting
no hiding the truth
It's bald and abrupt
slicing my psyche
a duality of pain and pleasure
why must she know the pain
I'm glad she does
means I'm not alone
yet I would destroy
that which did this thing
to her
to me
to us
I would devour that which is HATE
its purity is godlike
it keeps me warm
helps me remember
what I shouldn't
yet it is I
and apparently her
two souls, torn asunder
clumsily reattaching the pieces
inept in our bravado
at least for those with eyes to see
confused and obtuse
I ponder my move
HATRED
I've held on to it
caressed it
coddled, fed and adored it
endemic, it is I
can I let it go?
not easily, not yet
it is a sweet sweet suffering
my hurt
my pain
my secret
my shame
'cain never helped
acting only denied
in the end embraced it
hoping I would die
She is here
now she warms me
how can I end
why would I cease
pain is pain
but with her
and for us
it will ease

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