Release

I feel nothing
I breathe yet do not live
My eyes stare through you
I hear nothing that you say
I am no-one
Do you think of me when you walk by
Do you sense me when by my side
Do you even know I exist

Lonely
I sit and stare at a flickering TV
Inane images bombard my mind
They distract me from my non-existence

Have you experienced the pain
Have you felt the burning desire
To eradicate all you see
I have

Can you imagine living life
As a sane, productive
Important part of society
I can

I often sit here
Wondering where I went wrong
The sense of blame pushing on me
Ensuring I don't crawl from the pile
Then I realise it ain't my fault
I'm just the guy that lucked out

To be a no-one ain't all good
But advantages it has
Imagine being smarter than all those fools
Picture yourself knowing
Where they went wrong
Feel the satisfaction of going alone
But together
I know you can't

I can
I'm me
This is me

I hunger
I need
I feel
I love
I bleed

Lusting for affection is self defeating
Needing people is lonely
Feeling simply hurts
Loving destroys faith in myself

And bleeding
Well
That's a release

© 1995, Mosquitobyte