de-escalating down to the dirty thoughts

My friend loves chocolate covered white lies,
and the conniving secrets of well delivered oral sex
She laughs and swallows
back breaths and the foolishness of
beshirted men in justboxers.

As if life is her just
do, but.

My friend loves lilies, lavender
and frogs
legs bare
stark night
mares a
bout of rheumatoid arthritis.
She laughs and swallows thick
big tears like gumdrops
and tells me how tasty
all my lies have been
more more she says
but I know the frogs
and the pigs
and the dogs
and the cats
and the pigs
and did i mention the pigs
because i'm one of those
porky fucks.

She loves oral sex.
I know, I told you that
but it's important
like the latest stock market report
or some shit like that.

I tell her all the time,
I love you, you know, but
we can never be anything more than nothing

ok, i admit it
i never tell her shit

I just walk around in my stupid fat head
all covered in slimey boy-thoughts of
justsex and justcum and justlove

looking at her naked round body
as if it were meet
hands wringrangrunging round
and round
her ass

until.

it all cums out

and i behave.