~ music in my soul ~

I feel the weight of my hair on my back,
where the morning sunlight should be
reminding me
         ~ what i feel ~
         ~ what i know ~
of warm days playing in tall grass.
    (or  high atop a tree)
    
I twirl it up (with three firm twists)
    ~ a chill rides down my spin ~
   
    I close my eyes ~ tightly
        (but is it tightly enough?)
    and wait for the moment when
    the black behind my eyelids
    turns red ~ yellow ~ purple ~ hopeful
   
Sitting, peacefully
    (back to the sun)
I dream of all the questions
painted in all the colors
and all of the dreams
ringing out like all of the notes

~ doe ~
    it's all so dear to me (Lord I'm blue)

~ ray ~
    the sunlight starts to scald my neck (red)

~ me ~
    God, help me. Where is my grace?
        (what are these feelings
        i have wrapped around
        my ~ heart ~ ?)
        why am i (yellow) what happened to my ~ courage ~

~ far ~
                        so very far to go.
                        i know, but ~ Where? ~
                        (the sun is orange now
                        as she sets)
~ sew ~
    the threads of fate are gray
    and my soul such drab fabric today
    (still, i will be part of the quilt)

~ la la la la la la la ~
    I sing in indigo
    this moment of eyes shut
    and the rest of the day to come
    my back warm,
    and all this ~ peace ~
   
~ tea ~
    the ice cubes rattle
    i lift the glass to my (pink) lips
    and drink deeply.
            when i was a child
            ~This was my dream.~
           
~ doe ~
    we pay so dearly for these
    the ~ best ~ moments.
   
the colors fade as my eyes open
the world shudders into existence

a soft breeze cuddles my shoulders
i shake for want of answers,
(louder music)
(truer colors)

~this is the dream~
here where my hair is released
i pray again.
~ for peace.