faith

i am the boy
on the tightrope
who slips

whose testicle bleeds
for three days
while he says
nothing

the boy who believes
he is incapable
of having children
who gets a girl pregnant

i am the boy
who watched her die
and did not weep

until much later
when it was dark
and her song came on.

the boy who believes
he can walk on water
then slips
and twists his knee

so badly it blows up
and turns purple
like a finch

i am the boy
who hurt her
and didn't know

until the words
were spoken
and the damage done

the boy who believes
he can say anything
then does
and leaves her crying.