being shakespeares monkey

i build pictures with marbles
broken under steel shod feet
and carefully picked and poked
prodded and stuck with glue
to the underbelly of my heart

the first was a lemming
leaping off the cliffs of
dover, for you or some other
woman who never loved me
like my mother, "Lear, just
Lear" i said.

the next was simple:
a leather bound book
surfing along the edge
of a forty-foot-wave on
the north shore of maui,
"Othello... black and white
never read."

later, i when i thought
i was witty and before
you proved, i'm not special
i ordered the bits of marble
into two pills on a silver platter:
viagra & cyanide,"Romeo
& Juliette"

"pity," you smiled
dead,"you are so like that
you pithy fucktard, once
i thought i loved you
but really... your eyes
are just like the sun
bright and meaningless."