how man found hell after eden

it's me
it's me eyes closed
kraktapping a

way
for a be(bah-bee-bah-bah-BAH-bee)eat
but there is no (me)be
at
here

just some(thing)(smell)(hell)
some sound
un-me

what can that mean

a world un-me
un-right
i should leave

wristslit
drugdrunk
poisonheartpistoning
sing my littledeaths

wheretogo wheretogo
aruba (but I hate aruba
i hate sun
and beach
i hate saltwater
and sand) (butlordilovebikinisoiledskincurves
lordilovecurves)

mountains
those mountains
those tall mountains
wherecontinentscollide
mysoulfreetoscreamandecho
God I love mountains.

clear fresh waters
leap out from beneath
crusty white snow
and deer(wolf)deer tracks

ice cold pure and lovely
this is me
this is me

Yes. when my eyes close
I see.
the moment(waterdroponicicle)
the want (tinysplashinpuddle)
the thing I'm running towards (fire)

i open my eyes
in boston