Aphasiac

I try to keep in line
But my mind still goes astray
With the echoes of the day
When my heart went away

All I want to do
Is forget the me that’s you
Some time to fade away
Ashes here to stay

I am fear come true
Just leave me here
Where I’m alone
With nothing else to do
But write breathe and screw

What else am I supposed to do
When I don’t care any more
Than when I wasn’t you
Nothing here will pull me through

I cannot keep in line
When every word’s a discordant mime
Blood is all I leave
Though it’s taken the part of me
That was becoming

I don’t live here
Veins disappear
Lungs drown out my ears
My mouth it starts foaming
And I strap myself in

The needle interjects
It won’t give up
All this noise inside my head
Chittering until my end

The me you think you know
Is all I never was
As I cease to begin
Will this suicide never end

© 2012, Mosquitobyte