ashamed of myself

and yes, i'm embarrassed
because yes, i feel you
in me, raging like
a tornado or a frog or
maybe hot wet masturbation

and yes, i'm embarrassed
because i never talk about
any of that with anyone
not even the frog because
who could understand
i want to be a frog

that's so fucking nuts
and i'm such a retard
yes it's crazy but your
legs are around something
in me and your mind is
rubbing me just right
and i'm

embarrased because every
thing is spin
ning ar
ound
me and i'm not a
frog, just fucking
nuts. And so damned
embarrassed.
I'm not a frog.
just green, or
something

I'm probably not even
that. swimming around
wallowing
like a fool
i remember before legs
being a tadpole

or maybe i was kansas
not a tadpole
maybe I was wheat
or corn
right there
under the tornado.
wishing i was a frog.

03/20/2009