posthumous

in a thousand years
when my teddybear is in a museum
with a little placard in a language i don't know

it will have my name
and say he was mine
as if that alone is an achievement

i will have died hundreds of years before
under mysterious circumstances
and have had an obituary that explained
how I worked for a bunch of lawyers doing nothing very important
a bunch of people loved me
(sort of) and it's all very sad.

it will be twenty years later
before anyone reads a damned thing I wrote
and twenty more before it means anything to anyone.

And yes

This is what I want most of all.