Originality- Does it Exist???

So, what's the most origional idea you ever had that you found out wasn't? I don't really know, but.. I did have this theory brewing in my head for like.. a few months.. which I wont share, but it was very specific, and used a certain analogy, and I thought it was pretty insightful/clever, and I hadn't yet gotten around to fully formulating/writing it down. And then I read it in a fucking Palahniuk novel (Rant). Summarized in like.. a paragraph. And it kind of broke my heart into a million tiny pieces of pretentious sadness. I still harbor the secret hope that my idea is more clever/can be better expressed but...now I can't reveal it because hipsters are going to think I copied Palahniuk. Which I'd never (intentionally) do.

And what do you wish no one had ever written about before so you could be the very first? Lots and lots of things.

Pretend you're a kid and everything's possible like it never really was but we didn't know it until when? I can't go back to that headspace, unfortunately. And actually I can't recall a time in my life where I actually felt anything was possible. I think I've been boringly realistic forever. Though I do definitely realize more of my limitations now. 

Are we better or worse for knowing? Uh- better I think insomuch as that it's more true- and I think truth is important. But worse in that it's less pleasant.

Well, Shan, I guess I'm not a hipster cuz I would have believed you. Can't you still use your amazing idea by changing it up just a little? It sucks to toss it in the bin just because Palanuik wrote something similiar. Maybe he's a mind-thief, trolling writer's sites. A simple voodoo ritual would reveal his sordid methods. Tee hee. Ummm, boringly realistic? Maybe you're realistic but I don't think for a second that you're boring. Calling Pepe le Peu a cat rapist is not boring. In fact, it rather alarmed me. I like it when people do stuff that shakes me up a bit. Otherwise I nod off....Catherine