desire

I had to go back and reread your poem a couple of times in order to fully understand your intent.  I would punctuate and capitalize this, also divide the line breaks differently.  I omitted some words too. Here's my revision:

In fields of bright colours, 

I wrote a blush of wings in snow.

My thoughts peppered red,

muffled ducks encased in icy

steaming water no less solid, but undefined.....

I fear what I desire most,

each night a dream of rescue, 

My face distorted, a life lived asleep.

(I tried to fix the large spaces between the words in my revision, but it didn't work.)