Akinesia

I agree with Shan about the write being too wordy, though it didn't read like a monologue. It just feels like it needs to be trimmed up. Also, maybe separate the last two lines. Those lines, I think, should stand on their own, alone.

The way your first two lines play subtly throughout the write is very well done. At first I wanted a better transition, but then it speaks for itself. Because there is a quietness in grief, even when anger, bitterness and fear are harbored. It's a matter of coping and coping with coping. I especially liked the bit about the fingernails, because I remember thinking that. I remember being so troubled by that.

Great write.

~Emeya